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Benjamin
18 May 2011 @ 10:52 pm
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Benjamin
04 April 2011 @ 09:05 pm
After a creative hiatus, I am revisiting my old comic about the birds. I have created a tumblr site where I've put all of the old strips and will post all of the new one to come. Hopefully, I'll have a strip up by the end of the week.

(For completists: I have not put up "The Grackle King" storyline, and am not sure if I will. That one may be print only.)

(I also may make a tumblr for my even older strip, "The Columbian Museum of Natural History".)
 
 
Benjamin
05 March 2011 @ 10:45 am
This was what the lady at the Thai place I like to go to said to me the other night. I went to pick up my food and after I paid, she said that to me.

For a second, I wondered what she meant, that maybe she meant I always looked the same. Or that even she was driving at some metaphysical thing. Like one of those moments where someone says some insightful and profound thing. (These things happen in movies, but not real life, really.)

Maybe my mind went there because I've been thinking about stagnation. Thinking about how the last year has been spent either in deep depression or trying to level out of it. I have done little creative work. Mostly just spent time at work or watching Instant Play. So, I think it's time to try something new. (But, I think I wrote about this in my last post.)

Anyways, the Thai lady was, in fact, referring to how I always order from the curry menu. I told her I like to eat what I like. She said, "Do you like sushi?" I said I did, but not as much as I like curry. I told her I was planning on teaching in Slovakia for a year and that I worried I wouldn't be able to find curry over there. She said she thought I might, but if not, she said, "I will tell you how to make it."
 
 
Benjamin
14 February 2011 @ 09:57 pm
It's been a long, long since I've been on here.

I was driving home from work today and I realized that, over the past year, my life has been pretty uneventful. Of course, small things happened: a trip overseas to teach for a week in the mountains, working on some new creative projects, and general holidays and teaching moments. But I kind of feel like the past year has just been lost.

It took me a long time to get out of the depression from last March, and I sometimes wonder if I'm still in a low-grade version of it. Just a general dysthymia zone where I'm just going to work, coming home, eating, calling family and friends from time to time. Sometimes fiddling with paint or pencils. The constant hurt isn't there, the feeling crushed. But I do feel like I'm crawling away from a plane crash.

I watch a fair amount of Netflix, listen to a lot of podcasts. I truly believe that "Stuff You Should Know" carried me through the worst of last year.

But maybe big changes are on the horizon. Maybe a bit more time teaching overseas, just to do it. I have no girlfriend, no family, and my work will let me go. Maybe it's time to go and do that. We'll see. I'm seeing if it can work. There's a lot of puzzle pieces to fall into place. But maybe a change will do me some good.

Also, happy Valentine's Day to whoever reads this. Hope you have someone to share it with.
 
 
Benjamin
21 October 2010 @ 12:10 pm
After taking the vitamin D3 for about two and a half weeks, I am finding I have more energy and a bit more drive to work on projects.
 
 
 
Benjamin
12 October 2010 @ 10:41 pm
subtitle: in which I will write rather candidly about personal thoughts, but no one reads this so I'm really just finding a place to organize some things
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Benjamin
... but this was pretty clever, I thought.

 
 
Benjamin
26 September 2010 @ 10:12 am
I went to Chinatown for the first time in years last night. Went for dinner and a little junk shopping with Saara and Eric. Seriously, why don't I go there more often? I think all my Christmas shopping will be done in Chinatown this year.

The food was good, too. Though I could have knocked a few more animals off the meat list (like jellyfish and frogs) I went for something a bit more familiar and less expensive. We picked the restaurant because they served "plain chicken foot" which sounded pretty authentic. Saara ordered a Chinese Coke which came in an aluminum bottle and tasted weird. And we all got to take home plenty of leftovers. I foresee a trip back in the near future. (I know Eva from Slovakia wants to go, so there's an excuse. But I might not wait for her. I may need a solo trip.)
 
 
Benjamin
19 August 2010 @ 03:57 pm
After being unable to listen to music for almost 6 months, I am finally giving it a try again. Mostly it's been low-key electronica, Boards of Canada and Tycho. Lyrics sometimes seem too full of obvious images that make my mind wander to certain places, so I'm mostly sticking with instrumentals.

I have to say, the new Trentemoller album is pretty good.
 
 
Benjamin
11 August 2010 @ 10:37 am
So, I went to see "Inception" over the weekend with Miriam and Chad. It's a good movie. I confess, so many people were telling me "Be sure you're paying attention when you see it" that I kind of expected something really confusing, but I thought it was pretty straight-forward. (Miriam said to me, "Why did they say that? It's not complicated.")

But we three did have a fun discussion about the end of the movie on the drive home, and that was great. I won't write any more here, because how can you talk about the movie without spoilers, but feel free to drop plot points in the comments if you want to talk about it.